Suicide and the contributing factor

Unfortunately another gone .... when will the community realise that suicides among HIV Positive Gay Men happen a lot more frequently than they should?

Why don't institutions such as GGZ inGeest have suicidal patients? They say they don't.

Private Psycho-therapists and Psychiatrists on the other hand are perfectly aware of the rising figures of suicides in our group.

But what can they do? What can we do?

Are we doomed to repeat ourselves every time anew "I didn't know/realise it was that bad!"

When people ask "Was he HIV Positive?" and other HIV Positives say automatically "Yes, but that wasn't why he killed himself" .... it just isn't true .... it may not have been the decisive factor, but it was definitely a contributing factor.

Drenthe?

I'm off to Emmerhout, Emmen, in .... Drenthe .... the back of beyond ....

I will report upon return.

If I don't return you'll know I'm lost in the no-mans land that is 'the East' .....

Underestimation?

Have I underestimated the impact that the Conference would have on my body? And more dramatically my mind?

I've been in a heightened state of tension for the last 6 days.

I've been in seclusion for the last 3.

And I have no intention of breaking that silence for at least another day (or two).

What's wrong?

Everything and nothing of course.

Everything hurts, everything is painful from the slightest bump of the elbow to a lost dog on TV - but its all over nothing (or at least nothing significant).

That's also one of the problems - everything feels significant.

Over-reaction to any and all stimuli is what its about.